The Persistence of Memory is a haunting painting by Salvador Dali which is well-known for it’s images of melting clocks set against a strange, angular, somewhat apocalyptic backdrop. It is one of the most well known paintings in the world, a touchstone of surrealism. Most people assume the painting is quite large, although the opposite is true, as it is 9.5″ x 13″. The first time I saw it in person, I was struck by not only the size, but the intensity of the painting. The colors were both striking and subdued, and the technique downright eerie. I was also intrigued by the name, The Persistence of Memory.
Memory and time are two subjects that fascinate me. I am blessed with an abundance of memory, it seems, but a dearth of time. The two stand in opposition to each other. Memory, the past, is the ticking metronome which informs the future. It is the days gone by which are just out of reach, but can never be recovered. I often find myself thinking that it seemed like just yesterday, when in fact it was 20 years of yesterdays ago. Memory can be comforting and suffocating. It connects you with people that have long left you. It also can freeze you — the high school quarterback or homecoming queen trapped in the amber of their greatest accomplishments — those who peaked early and never moved on. Memory is resistance to change, or the impetus for it. It is the reason that thirty year olds are living like twenty year olds, long after college has passed; it is also recognizing mistakes and learning from them, if you are lucky enough to be blessed with perspective as well. Memory is in fact persistent. It can sear you with the pain of something that you are removed from by fifty years. It can take you somewhere you can’t go physically, but put you in the exact spot. It is our only true defense against time, and we spend a great deal of time trying to preserve it; we write, read, take photographs, preserve, curate, and even create Facebook pages in the interest of capturing time, trying to curtail it.
In the end, time always wins. We know that early on in life. Time is a strange quantity too, because it is life’s most important asset, but you never know how much you start with and how much you have left. It is ethereal. We go to great length to measure it, but it is really unquantifiable. It is unidirectional, always moving forward with little regard to the past. It works hand in hand with memory, but dismisses it as well. We try and control it, by planning out the hours of our days, but really time has no master. The older I get, the more I realize that it is time I want. Time to spend with my loved ones. Time to work on my craft. Time to create the memories that will comfort me in my hopefully older age. In the United States, we spend a great amount of time pursuing money in the hopes that it will buy us more time. It is a funny way to look at things in my opinion. When I think about getting ahead, I think not about what is in the bank, but the days I have left in the tank, and hope they are days well spent. I suppose I want to use this time to create more more memories, persistent as they may be…